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Humming Bird16 October half monthYiyi is half month today, she is happily sleeping in her small bed right now, i am happy too, finally sit down and write down my feeling since i had her out of my belly 15 days ago.
Newly born Yiyi, like an angel, displays all kinds of facial expressions at a certain moment every day, yarning, mouth wide openning, impatient, staring, smiling, frowning. I love looking at her, from hair, eyes, nose, mouth, ears, fingers, to toes, every part of her , and amazed how wonderful a human being is made from a fetus to a living little kid, bring happiness and hope to a family, and parents.
i am breastfeeding her, she is not a big eater, but likes eating while sleeping, the elders all say its not a good habbit, we must change this to a seperate eating and sleeping afterwards. My milk came down uneasily, i massaged my breasts, used hot towl to warm them, and sucked the nipples at several mid-nights before i went to high fever. At t he 4th day after the operation, milk came down finally and Yiyi started to accept the new feeders and have relied on them then.
My husband and I played music everyday morning while we helped Yiyi do morning exercises, folk, Jazz, Pop, Ragee, Spiritual, all kinds of songs lifted us up at the great moment in the sunbath, we strecthed her arms, legs, she was happy, enjoying the music and intimicy with her parents.
Straight sleep at night has become a luxury for us right now, i wake up several times for feeding and changing diapers, my husband helped me during most of times. After all, Yiyi is a quitet girl, she can sleep for 6-7 hours in a row, and cry little. It's a big challenge for my husband though, he got invovled totally, washed cloth diapers all day long, fully enjoying the role of father. Sometimes, he takes Yiyi as a kind of pet, making her cry by crubing her face with his scruff, holding her in his big palm and flying her in the air. Obviously, he loves her, as a germ, very happy when people say Yiyi looks liker him when people see her photo or herself in person.
Yiyi's arrival means an exciting moment for everyone in my family and my husband's too. She is so small, growing up little by little everyday. My mom comes to my mother-in law's home every 3 days, each time, she found some changes on Yiyi, and makes that a surprising finding to everyone. My mon gave her a nickname "little pretty girl". She is expecting Yiyi and me to go back to stay with her after the one month resing, i am expecting to finish this one months soon, and even begin imanging the moment of shopping and having a cup of coffe in a coffe shop. 20 September 清平乐清平乐
金风细细，叶叶梧桐坠。
绿酒初尝人易醉。
一枕小窗浓睡。
紫薇朱槿花残。
斜阳却照阑干。
双燕欲归时节，银屏昨夜微寒。
眼看离那日子近了，睡眠不是甚好，于是早饭后又小憩。
睡毕德此秋词，有感，既奉上享之。 28 August First Kiss on Green Cityits been a week since i came back from Beijing with mom. Zhengzhou, the place where i grew up and left for college and career persuasion 15 years ago has gone through dramatic change just like other medium capital city in China. I am staying with mom in a newly moved apartment which used to be the home of my elder sister who and her family just bought a bigger apartment with size of 120 square meters and moved there half year ago.
The old house where i spent my happy childhood currently are with all rooms rent out to students, small business man and other migrant people from other cities. Before mom went to beijing to take care of me, she had been in charge of the renting business for many years and each year allocated income to the three girls according to our different investment. Mom is a very smart woman, running this business for many years and she is very fair at keep everyone content at what she receives at the end of each year.
Zhengzhou is smaller than Beijing, but very convenient, the big supermarkets provide same variety of goods and daily necessities with Beijing, food here are special and cheap, with taste of smell of childhood. More and more cars are running on road, polluting the air and making people feel crowded. The other name for Zhengzhou is "Green City", it deserves this name. Big green trees are planted everywhere, and green shade cools people in summer.
The Golden River is the only river in Zhenghou and it runs through the city from west to east. Clean water runs between the banks on which lawn and trees attract people to come for walking and doing physical exercises. Its only five minutes by walking from our home to the River, mom and i go there for fun everyday after dinner.
I have few friends here, but many family relatives. After living in another big city for so many years, coming back, to me, gives a fixed feeling. The city is old but new, familiar and strange. Children have grown up, parents are getting older. And i am expecting my little girl who will born in the hospital just next to our home. Phoenix TVs are accessible here, even HBO. Fewer people use apple computer, but cost of internet here is much cheaper than Beijing. I went to a cloth market with mom this morning, bought several pieces for different uses. While am surfing on the internet, mom is operating her old sewing machine to stitch the edges of the big clothes in the next room. Sound of piano music from my apple computer and noise of that old machine are mixed together, lingering in the afternoon air of later summer. 26 July Sanlian Bookstore and Blenz CoffeeAs far as i remember, it is the first time i went to a bookstore with my husband. We did this after we married 8 years, and while i am carrying a baby. it sounds weird, doesn't it? I like the very moment when a couple read together, cuddling in a sofa, or drinking a couple of coffee, with some both loved music on, floating in the casual air. But at our home, such scene is a kind of unexpected, usually, it is like this, one of us is reading, the other is sitting before computer, playing games or reading information. The reader is me, and the game player is Jingjing.
Therefore, it's a moment which is worth noting down when we both go to a bookstore at a weekend. Sanlian Publishing House enjoys reputation for publishing hight quality art books, literatures, business books and some influential magazines such as Sanlian Weekly. It is not a big bookstore, quietly sits beside the Art Museum of China, attracting many old readers and students. The prices of books are as tagged on the book back, obviously higher than the discount price of the same books sold online. However, flipping pages of book, smelling the ink fragrance of a book cannot be replaced by the convenience purchase online. We stood there for almost an hour, browsing some books we are interested. My eyes always fall on art books, business theory, etc, Jingjing read several books about small business development, relating to his work. He responded that he liked this environment, and very enjoyed reading. I was happy to hear this and smiled.
In the afternoon, we went to Blenz Coffee again located in the Central Park, i like the small green hill outside and bustle and hustle of people and kids. Here come many foreigners with different skin colors and speaking all kinds of foreign languages. They sit in the sunshine, drinking and chatting, with sunglasses, as if there were at a see beach. All Chinese people all sit inside, enjoying cooling air out of air con. See the cultural difference? I like observing behaviors of people from difference countries. We plan to buy a camera, a sort of professional one. Jingjing used the whole afternoon searching online about different options, we focus on Canon 40D or 50D, but we finally decided to postpone the purchase for the soaring prices of about 20% up than a month ago. Some friend is a fan of photography, we will follow him and wait the right moment.
Dinner was perfect too, we spend 100 yuna but got 50 coupon for free use next time. Mom said this restaurant can be considered as the welcome dinner venue for my sister and nephew. i agreed. They are coming next Wednesday.
Art Museum of ChinaLong time not going to watch any exhibition in the Art Museum of China, it used to be a place i often visited many years ago, such close touch with art in various forms including oil painting, Chinese ink painting, photography, and calligraphy satisfy my thirst for spiritual fullness.
Recently i feel the thirst again, thanks to the convenient location of my apartment in the downtown, Mom and i took bus to visit this old friend even though i am already heavy with 7 month baby inside. There are several exhibitions on, here i want to talk more about two among them in particular. One is the works called Pure Tao by a famous Chinese bird and worm ink painter, Master Zhou Yingren at the occasion to celebrate his 80 birthday; and the other is photos taken by a used-to-be-businessman photographer, the theme is harmony between human and nature. Majority of the photos are cranes, posturing in all kinds of movement and activities, with the titles of each photo tagged, making them remarkably shining.
its not easy for me to stand in the exhibition hall too long, however, i was still amazed by the beauty of these pieces, which released the artists' insight of life, pure heart, desire of a spirit, peaceful and joyful. Zhou Yingren focuses much on the dynamics of small black squirrels with the still backgrounds of flowers, trees, bamboos, rocks, they either jump, hung to tree trunk, or run after another. Theses squirrels easily catch watcher's eyes, i like the simplicity which the artist wants to express, as a senior, such simplicity tells a very supreme beauty he understands of human life, and a kind of spiritual level.
I was even stunned by the photos exhibited to call for an inner echo to the urgency to protect the nature where animals live in and people's love for such wonderful and rare wonder. The artist is very good at capturing small movement of these cranes in extremely short time and he names each piece of his work with unexpected, creative expression which match the piece and add even more meaning than the photo itself. What i like the most are the photos of couple cranes, they either kiss each other, hug, fly together or gaze at each other. These photos were taken during down, evenfall, or bright sunny daytime, by the lake, in the desert, or up in high sky. light is smartly captured and highlighted on some photos, extraordinary structure of photos makes themselves looked original and exciting.
I will remember this visit, and hope my little girl will have such interests when she grows up. Maybe one day she can read this message and feel the impulse and intend to explore her longing for art.
20 July BBQThis weekend is very exceptional, we had a wonderful BBQ with friends in a big house with a courtyeard in which plants, trees, vetabables happily grow and contribute much shadow, fruits to our delicous meal. The host is a very successful businessman and his wife is an in house councel, who invites us to this wonderful gathering. The others are couples from 3 families and along with a single girl,Kelly, who took the role as photographer, recording the happy hours and good memories. Husbands worked hard to start the fire, wives and the girl got food, drinks, utensils prepared. And all of us, except me (for the mother-to-be has the rights to stay away from the routine) drink liquor and beer. The dinner lasted about several hours, with our chat, gossiple, jokes and big talks about man thing interwaved. Majiang was the game the husbands played after dinner, which went through the whole night till early morning. All their eyes are red, with big pouches but cheerful spirit. Lao Zhao, hunsband of Difei who we all believe is a south beauty and most elegent Chinese woman, slept on the balcony after got drunk, his wife took good care of him by whipping away mosquitos all around. Actually Wendy replaced Lao zhao to play Majiang during the mid night, this playgirl challenged the other three big man, her own husband, my husband and Syvia's husband from our treasued island Taiwan. Another important members that cannot be avoided to mention, are doudou, bubu, wanwan, they are three small sized puppies owned by Slivia the best cook and and a big shepherd dog owned by Wendy, the lanaguange aritist and our in house counsel. There seemed a kind of love affair among these lovely dogs, they chased one from another, fought, barked the whole night, performing a love story which we laughed and tried to get better insight. i nearly forgot i am with a baby, and stayed late with the girls till mid night, finnaly when i found my butts and legs were becoming stiff and painful, i knew i had to go to bed. i slept about several hours, half waken halp slept, but all others stayed till early dawn. At 0530 in the morning, we left, and all slept in the whole morning ,even the whole day. It's was a lovely gathering in this summer season, and i believe it has been kept deeply in the memory of each participant. We will recall the wonderful time and look forward to the next time, which would be the same wonderful and successful with all contribution from all. 17 July July 17, sprinklingThere is much rain in Beijing this summer, in a couple of days, it rains, cooling this hot metropolitan and wetting people's scorching mood.
It is the first year i live in downtown since i bought my own apartment seven years ago. The temperature in the suburb is 3 to 4 degrees lower, air conditioners are not our household necessity, however, they become must installed facilities in the apartment in the downtown.
Since Mom came, my careless spending money has been a bit controlled, her nagging words are always in the air before I have a desire to buy something which is not necessary. It is obvious the prices of living necessities in Zhengzhou are higher than that of Beijing, she told me many times that when she goes back, she would spend more money easily than before, because living in Beijing has nurtured such practice. Well, i don't want to argue too much with her about how to spend money, sometimes i even share with her why i spend more to buy products with better quality, she is learning, but still a bit hard to shift completely from her lifestyle accumulated over past 60 years. Through living together for almost 2 months, i have learnt one thing that i resemble mom very much from face look and personalities. We are both sensitive, aggressive, fond of shopping, creative, fan of music (of course, for her, local operas are more popular during that times), etc. i do enjoy sharing time with her, obviously, hanging out with Jingjing brings me more fun and good feeling, for he is my husband, i need his attention and care.
Yiyi has started kicking violently inside, particularly in the evening. She started earlier, such kicking is an exclusive movement and relationship only she and i can share, for she is inside me, feeling me as i am feeling her. Its a kind of wonderful experience, a life is growing up inside you, u are expecting her while seeing your belly is bulging. i feel very happy and eager to see her soon. It's been 28 weeks, another 12 weeks to go, i count the days. 24 June Google, Music free downloadTOP100.cn is a exclusive music service operator of Google, from whose website Chinese music lovers can download their favorate music or songs freely. All music or songs are sourced from 4 world biggest music labels, EMI. Warner, Sony and UMG, covering diversity of music forms:POP, Rock, Country, Easy Listening Music, Folk, Electronical, New Age. Punk & New Wave, Hip-pop, Movie Sound Track, classical, Jazz, Blues, and so on. Several types of countdowns easy users to find the newest and most favored music and songs. Lanaguange either English or Chinese is also a way to find out what you want. Famous songs of starring singers like Jonas Brothers, Linken Park, Cold Play are easier to click straightly right now.
The top Chinese search engine, Baidu, already has a music search feature, despite lawsuits from many different labels. It enables users to download free music through third party sites. So popular it's helped Baidu capture 62% of the China marking. Google is a distant second at 28%. With the launch of this website, Google has started with about 350,000 free songs, but plans to have more than a million soon. The goal is to generate advertising revenue that Google, its Chinese partner, and the music labels will share. But more importantly, drive traffic and catch up to the competition. I even find a column of Christian songs, performed by various singers, including Nana, Youyou Ma, etc. I could say its a good try and attractive to Chinese music fans, at least the drive traffic is smooth and music has better quality than Baidu. 18 June wet eveningit is raining, leaves out of my window, are soaking up the water drops, happily.
Anna and Barbe came to see me, in such a bad weather, brough love and care though. Their visit means significant to me after i started rest since several days ago. They changed my mood, a bit low earlier. Their prayer drew me closer to Him, making me realize what i do right now is pleasing God, i need to ask for persistence and faith to keep reading and sharing information with mom during morning exercise moment.
Mom prepared good food, which won high praises from the two lovely girls. They didn't eat much, however their sincere complimentary helped me understand how deep mom loves me. She has kept preparing food for me for a month. I wanna thanks God for the time right now i am spending with mom, we shared a lot of stories during time when i was little, her marriage life with my dad who passed away five years ago, her smart and successful managment on some significant fammily events, her fair and even allocation of the property among our three girls. I have to admit Mom is old, my memory of all the stories is fragmented, her pouring out linked all the pieces and i recall my growing up, life seems not easy, i even have a pulse to write down mom's story, but fear i am weak at story telling, plot making, well, its a matter of resolution, and persistance, i need time to think about it.
17 June Life songThe new apartment is a good location, close to a luxury apartment district called Central Park in Beijing's CBD area. There is a small hill in the center of the high residential buildings, at the bottom, stand several coffee shops and a playground. Around 6 oclock every afternoon, peole of difference countries sit in or out of the cozy coffee shops, chatting, exchaging news, mums and dads watch their children of 2-5 years old play in the ground, nannies run after little kids who laughed and cried loudly, withough any worries. Mum, Jingjing and I often go there for walking, watching happy kids, sometimes have small chat with some adults. Life seems easy and happy at that moment, if we had a affluent life, i'd rather live like this.
i get up very early every morning, go to Ritan park with mum for morning exercise. It's also a time to read Bible and share with mum. Mum made commitment many years ago, but she dosen't really understand christianity, we read verses together, and i try my best to explain the meaning. It's a fellowship, sometimes i feel drifted away from God, right now, i am drew back again. I understand i have to live like a christian, pray, read and attend fellow ship. Prayer is indeed powderful, it helped me calm down, made the right choice, love people. Holy spirit is our advisor, leading my way ahead.
I read widely recently and watch a lot of vedio programs in English, including NY times, Economist, Wall Street Journal, CNBC, Finanical Times, Guardian, CNN, Reuters. They are media i scannned news interesting to New Zealand, now they become my regular check websites and sources of international news, and of course a way to improve english. i am also reading books written by some famous Chinese journalist, they record breaking events all over the world, from their own perspective. I begin to admire media people, they do a powerful work to monitor human behaviour including governments and individuals, though sometimes they cannot be that fair, equitable for some commonly known reasons.
16 June DownpourFrustrated after i carelessly deleted all words by accident. i guess, i need to stop here, helping me relieved. 15 June YiyiIts been a while since i wrote late time.
Time always flies, so fast that sometimes i dare not look back what has happened.
Today, i resume writing, for my child-would-be Yiyi, who has been in my womb for 6 months.
Yiyi came for me to know her after she stayed in side for 2 months. Before that critical moment, my husband and i have tried a couple of years, just a "bang", unexpectedly, she came, brought long waited laughters and satisfaction for us, and of course two big families who had been expecting it for long.
Last week, i learn that it is "She", the name Yiyi in Chinese means beautiful and wise woman. it's a nickname, easy to call and sounds elegant. I guess my girl will love it when she comes out.
My belly is getting bigger, Yiyi has started moving, sometimes hiccaped. How wonderful life it is, it just comes at an amazing moment, you feel it, and expect it. I feel lucky that i am woman, able to experience every stage that a kid grows, which man only start to see after it comes out.
For Yiyi, i have moved to the downtown, a green tree grows out of my window, everyday, it gives shadow, and its leaves shake when winds softly blows. The Place with the biggest Screen of the world is only five minitue away by walking. i like living here, a new life start with new life.
12 March 第10周昨天夜里发生了历险事件，又是不能熟睡的一夜，老公接到电话就匆匆赶来，还好，我们有妇产科的朋友，在听问之后基本判定，没有什么大碍。 胃口还是不爽，饮食依然不香，什么时候才能够到达大吃大嚼的阶段阿？我真盼望着这两周快点过去，进入安全的13周。最近，眼睛非常酸胀，时常看不了一会电脑就要休息。
我一直认为孩子是男孩，种种生活经历，喜好，期望都预示我应该能有个男孩，但是谁知道呢。老公一直把它叫妞妞，殷切之极希望是女孩。 我们给女孩想了个小名叫伊伊，上口，希望她漂亮，气质与众不同，像妈妈最好。嘻嘻。 自从怀孕了以后，老公彻底变了一个人，叫东决不向西 ，心肝情愿地给做饭、系鞋带、抓痒痒、跟孩子说话，还时常地背地里自责一下，怎么没有早些年就奋斗成功，更多给孩子一些。真是很奇妙，无论我们用什么方法都无法做的事，一个才几个月的小生命就能不费吹灰之力改变一个大男人，我喜欢怀孕的感觉，被宠爱，被关注，这是每个女人渴望的，在婚姻里。 6 March 惊蛰和两会昨天惊蛰了一天，有效果，今天的天气格外晴朗，太阳耀眼，站在阳光里不愿抽身回来。为了应一下景，我脱去了厚厚的羽绒服，换上了薄薄的呢子大衣，不再显得臃肿，心情也跟着好了。
离开雀巢、再加入使馆，两个月后怀孕，企盼着即将到来的春季，就像没有人预见的经济危机一样，我的变化也真的未曾安排发生，但一切就自然地发生了。三年以后，再次过上这种能徒步上班，上下午有茶歇，徜徉在静谧的使馆窄街当中，听听音乐，读读闲书的生活，真挺适合怀孕生子。感谢上苍，只能是不住地感恩了。
很可惜，我有一位非常投缘的朋友已经离开了使馆，最近总想起我们几年前消磨时光，在一块胡说八道的盛况，如今已是人去楼空，独感寂寞了。这斯将会在今年7月份赴阿根廷学习西班牙语，随后再决定学个什么专业。非常随性的一个人，自然是80后生人，但敏感、豁达、充满艺术气息, 其facebook上自撰的“My 25 things” 倒是深刻而又贴切。在这个世界上我们总能遇到一些人，在你的记忆中难以磨灭。她应该是我生命中其中的一个。
这么一个好天气，又赶上三八节，当前同时奔赴ALEMEDA大贺，玻璃房、阳光、巴西佳肴，也挺应景。两会上主席作了政府报告，形势看来一片打好，中外媒体极度关注，老百姓网上可发表意见，春天了，两会也跟着凑凑应景。
希望这个周末天气依然如此美好，让好心情继续吧。 4 March 半夜醒着最近半夜睡觉总会醒来，目的是必须上洗手间，小家伙在肚子了疯长，还没太适应。
但往往再躺回去总无法迅速入睡，脑子里总是会放电影。放的多了，我发现我现在不开心哎，是不是因为最近总是胃口不好，老穿一件样式不变得孕妇防辐射服，都厌了。 也没人在恭喜你了，好心的会及时问候，冷脸子的一句话都不多说。
再想深了，我发现，是自己太寂寞了，一个人独享音乐多了，更寂寞。狂想曾和小V在一块的疯像，和朋友一起听音乐会的惬意，几个小时畅聊得淋漓。
我有点怀疑，孩子能给我带来什么样的快乐呢？人生就是这样，放弃一些，得到一些。随着时间的变迁，得失都变得不那么重要了，可需要变换的心境却很难那么华丽漂亮的转身，总是拖泥带水地抹点擦不掉的痕迹。
追求浪漫的人，追求满足自我精神需要的人，追求心理安全的人总会怅然所失。倒是羡慕那些能吃能睡，啃老组的避不出户，只耐这么多年的漂泊形成的惯性永远无法磨具成那般模样了。
不过好在一点，受了这么多年的教导，慢慢学会不大喜大悲了，凌驾于情感波动上的自由不再受制于失眠、大怒、痛苦，只是出了淡淡的忧伤，这就是人们常说的沉淀和成熟？
站在窗前，饮着香茶，看着远山，就这样定格吧。。。（真实的出现在一个远居延庆的朋友家的厨房里） 3 March 初春的喜讯当确切的得知怀孕的消息后，我和老公彼此对着傻笑了好几天。那时，孩子已经只差一个星期就两个月了。在此之前，我打了羽毛球，吃了感冒药和胃药，听了摇滚乐，吸了二手烟，还那个了。所以我得出一个结论，这孩子够皮实，牢牢地待着。
离3个月还有有一个月的时间，刚开始我特别谨慎，走路都平着走，别人远远看见我都以为是个老太太。我想我是有点过分了。在诸位妈妈的教导下，我稍稍安心，尽量地放松，像个正常人行进了。开始晨呕，起夜，眼睛干涩，下腹胀疼，做梦梦见吃的，有一天夜里还大叫着“我要吃青菜”醒来上卫生间。
开始跟宝宝讲讲话，好像是有感情了似的，虽然它还只是个小胚胎。还开始听莫扎特了，真的是特别适合孕妇听的胎教音乐，我已经开始听不得特吵的音乐了。小宝宝需要安静、舒缓的音乐。 1 July 恐惧和爱的语言人会不会恐惧害怕,我觉得这是一种象感冒一样的毛病,人人都会得,吃了药就会好了.今天问一个朋友,他竟说他从不害怕,我想这个世界上是不是有疫苗,即使有,还得打一针,低烧两天才有抵抗力呢.不知他的疫苗是什么?青春年少,博学,聪明,上进?我得而知.
恐惧和害怕我是常有的,以前没免疫的时候,通常都是以紧张和不安来抬举这个东西,最近学会了和我的伙伴交谈获得平安和释放,所谓恐惧和害怕无非是把自己多年囤积起来的自信一再地被至于测试状态, 我就得象备战一样找尽各种理由来从这种包围中突破出来.现在明白,其实恐惧和害怕无非是对自己的否定,那么完全地接受自己的本相,是不再恐惧的第一步,能在接受自己的情况下再不断地提高而且享受自己的优势带来的满足感就是抵挡恐惧的盾牌.这就象刷牙一样,得一天练习两遍,渐渐就成为生活的一部分了.不过有些人不恐惧也不刷牙,可能用说"谢谢,你真棒"代替了吧.
最近,把老板炒了,自己在家过那自由的生活,也操练控制恐惧的功课.听很多英文的讲座,那美丽的语言也是一种带来平安的音乐.
有些人对英文,尤其是说中文夹带点英文的做法痛恨直至,可他们不晓得这么做的人只是因为左右脑混乱了而已. 人的情绪和扑面迩来的讲话方式总会打架, 就得靠态度和爱心找到能回转的空间.这就是沟通的最佳境界.我要多读爱的语言. 27 June 黑色夹脚拖鞋昨天在东四四条的虾酷见到了久说要见终于见上的小V，她站在地铁站的出口处冲我傻乐，我也报以同样的笑容。 还是那个革命头，清瘦清瘦的。
我们基本上吃了两道汤菜，绿深深的绝对健康。末了的汤圆上还有一层桂花，诡异的香味。我们瞎聊，主要是两性关系，我永远都是建议者的身份，因为已婚只能做这个位子，至高无上地给些肯定，建议和少许的拙见。尽量装的什么都懂，真搞不定的时候适时地摆出谦虚地姿态，以博得良好印象，这个人没活在梦里。
我们聊到一部电影the samara，别名色戒，描写大山深处喇嘛和尚寻求在清心修炼和本能欲望之间的挣扎，女主人公由著名的钟丽缇主演，完全素装上阵。这部电影是V在尼泊尔时买的，她记得很多细节。她跟我分享了下面的内容。让人难忘的话语，甭管它们是出现在对白里还是刻在manishi的正面和背面。句子一：如何阻止一个水滴干掉，让它流回大海。句子二：which is better to satisfy a thousands of desire or conquer one?在网上搜了一下相关内容，竟有一哥们给出了很详细的阐述，提到了desire，mind，awareness，我想在明白他说什么之前，还是要搞明白自己是不是已经准备好敞开进入这样的精神领域，勇敢或犹豫着。。。。
我们分手时，小雨已经停了，我们拥抱告别，我喜欢这样的小聚。转身离去时我看到她穿着黑色带花的夹脚拖鞋，踩在水花里，溅的裤腿上全是，她走了。
26 January 阅微庄的四合院写阅微庄决无为其做广告之嫌,不知哪年哪月在北京东四四条里有这么一个庄院,竟因此得名了.院落两进,前院和后院都不大,
据说是什么大户人家的私宅，翻修了，也用于商业目的了，不过总还说得过去，竟保留了先祖留下的产业．如果我是主人，即使
拿了租用，也决不搬出去，浪费了老北京四合院的清净和雅致．
前院和后院摆放的几张桌椅孤零零地，但还能看出它们在繁华时高朋满座的自得．目光向上移，越过房顶，无数次进入我镜头的北京
枯树，在早晨阳光的照射下，颜色越发显得黑了，树枝默默地指向天空，让我响起很多电影里拍摄老北京四合院的取景角度，俯照，略过
镜头的是鸣哨，成排的信鸽．
房间里的家具都是中式的，包裹柜厨＼茶具＼和面盆（瓷器作的，有传统的印花图案）但年头都挺近的，到也不妨碍营造气氛的功能．昨晚对面房间一直亮着暧昧的红灯，应该是按婚房布置的，缎面的床褥缩在窗缦后面，泛着亮亮的光．床对面是一个罗汉床，摆者茶具，故时或许也抽烟的地方？这应该是著名的豪华套，后来早上有人住了进去，讲普通话，听口音应该是来自台湾，同胞们也被北京古老的文化吸引，保留更多会更好。
吃了早餐，在阳光里看了会安意如小朋友的＜思无邪＞，诠释＜诗经＞的现代版，那些难懂的文言文亲切了很多． 数着映在墙上的窗格子，真愿意被淹死在这一刻．朋友在成都早晨的酒店咖啡厅里看街头的行人，发来短信，心情竟都是一样的，淹死有个同伴，也是好的，同时不同地．
在安静的胡同里溜了半天，好冷，枯书成排，勇敢地站在阳光里，他们应该暖和一些了．胡同里安静地好象我在别的城市，恍惚了，离三环的高楼和沸腾好远． 这一刻的寂静能留多久？原我的生活方式变化，我能尽可能地挽留这寂静的脚步．
顺便交代一下，到这的初衷是和我的他过一个浪漫的夜晚，满足，感恩，竟得到了好多sideline feelings. ha．．．．．．．．
1 January 新年新年到了，歌手们在创作新曲，湖南台在串烧快乐男生，超女，舞动奇迹带来超出自已期盼的惊喜。
谢天华，已经不拍戏了，却用它颇具张力用灵魂舞动的艺术让所有的人感动了一把。潜力是什么，是你在努力多年
不得要领，无意之间却发现了自己舞者的天赋，音乐一动，舞步及起，或快活慢，或静或动，净都无法移动眼球了。舞至终极，
喜及之泣，对生命和艺术的感悟吧？这是今晨两点对新年到来的印证。
昨天，2007年最后的一天，我的好朋友或歌，或弹，或舞，在我的蜗居，让音乐，中国传统、现代流行、
触及人心的灵歌，中文，英语，法语，西班牙语，音乐无国界，音乐属乎生命，我们在音乐中认出了彼此，因为
那相同的印记。音乐带领我们触及那高处，无他可及。
新年到了，会有很多祝福，也会有愿望，我想：
1）在音乐上更上层，认识更多的小蝌蚪，触摸更多的弦和键，能唱之优；
2）过好我的三角生活，交流、读书和团契；渴求更多爱的能力；
3）全心地成为贤妻，与他同行。
4）舞动我的生命
5）工作，他让我壮胆不惧怕。
我们的生命，静水深流。
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